I have a story
to tell, and whether or not it's true is for you to figure out. It IS going to
be long, but it's very passionate, very well written, and will make even the
strongest of hearts melt..... here's the story....
There was once a boy who even in his freshman year of highschool was looking for love.... he always was hoping for his high school sweetheart because he wanted the story of how him and an amazing girl stayed together through high school and got married and lived a happy life together. Unlike many people in this world, he knew exactly what he wanted and no matter how diffcult things would become, he never gave up hope and never stopped fighting for what he wanted. Through high school, relationships for him came and went and though he had strong feelings for a couple of them, in all reality, they were easy to let go. Although there was one girl more difficult to get over than the other and even when he thought he was over her and had moved on, she came back into his life for a hope of a second chance.... like an ignoramous, he decided to give her that but as time progressed, before they could see eachother in person again, she decided they were better as friends. Then one day, shortly before his high school prom, she did a beautiful romantic gesture and showed up at his school holding up a sign saying "Take me to prom?" and he couldn't help but to give in..... only to later find how huge of a mistake that was...... HOWEVER, only to an extent..... to an extent because fate works itself around in painful, mischeivous ways to get you to where you belong. He took her to dinner, bought the tickets for prom, spent the gas money to drive to prom.... he felt like he was going to have his second chance with her again after they'd slow dance in the crowded room, but come to find out, they didn't dance once and he wasted so much money and time on her, he talked to her about it at prom and ended up making her upset where they had to leave early. Their friendship started to fade and he was in a very tough place..... until he met....... HER.
In February 2012, he was still getting over that girl and decided to go on YouTube. He listened to their old song and commented on the video about how much he missed her and wished he had a chance.... but little did he know, by that simple comment, his life would inevitibly change. A few days passed by and he checked his youtube inbox like usual, but this time.... he had a comment reply. A very sweet and caring girl replied to him saying how great of a guy he is and how he doesn't deserve that mistreatment, so even as a stranger, she said she'd love to help him through it. Thinking nothing of it, he decided to take her up on that offer thinking it'd be just a friendly conversation as she helped him get over the girl, and they'd never speak again..... this was far from what actually happened. The two started to become friends.... really good friends...... VERY good friends. She was very thoughtful and caring, he really connected with her. He knew he could talk to her about anything and everything and subconsiously, he would get excited to talk to her. They then started to talk on facebook. He looked into her pictures and was absolutely breathtaken.... she was gorgeous..... the most beautiful girl he'd ever laid eyes on but he felt she was way out of his league and didn't see her as more than a friend. (Even though he knew he liked her just from her personality alone, before he saw her) They would talk every day for hours at a time and even late into the night.... see, she lived 3 hours in time difference away, 2,136 miles away to be exact. So they'd stay up talking til about 1 am his time and 4 am her time. She was stubborn about going to bed, but she really enjoyed talking to him. They started falling for eachother, and as scary as it was confessed it on June 7th, 4 months about after they met. Then the weekend after graduation, he had gone away with some friends on a camping trip while she patiently waited for him to get back. God, he missed her..... he thought about her every moment of the day and couldn't shake the feeling that, "wow, I love her... I have to tell her". He and his friends took a hike way into the mountains and they were able to get cell reception up there.... so he took out his phone in hope of getting his chance to tell her he loved her.... he couldn't wait any longer, but sadly.... no service on his phone.... and he still had two days to wait. The trip was fun grant it, but he still wished more than anything he could talk to her. He got back and immediately got on the computer; before unpacking, before changing, and gawd forbid.... before showering. He simply couldn't wait to talk to her. He told her about the trip and she really missed him, but he was too nervous to tell her that day. The next day, they were talking..... being really sweet towards eachother, and he just knew it was time. He knew how much he was throwing on the line. There was a girl 2,136 miles away from him and yet, he never felt so close to someone in his life. He said, "I'm ready to say three words.... three words that are the most terrifying yet beautiful words one can say to another. Three words that really prove the meaning of someone to another. three words I DO NOT expect you to say back and actually please don't unless you are completely ready and mean them 100%
These three words I don't have any reason not to say because
I feel them.....hold on and be prepared.... I LOVE YOU. You've taken my heart
and I've fallen completely. As crazy as it seems.... It happened. " and
the seconds to follow were the longest seconds ever..... what would she think?
Would she feel that's crazy? Would they be something or would she leave him
alone? She replied....... three words returned back and his heart skipped a
beat, and in that moment.... he felt the world shift. Something special was
changing about his life and he didn't know what yet. The next day they talked
on the phone for the first time and her voice was that of an angel. Their
relationship developed and they fell harder and harder each day..... thinking
time and distance were merely just words..... when the worst could happen, it
did. They broke up, but not by their choosing.... in August (2 months after
that first "I love you") Her parents didn't want her with someone so
far away and wanted her to focus on her life more. But they loved eachother far
too much, a week of being broken up was too much to bear so they got back
together in secret. They had to talk for an hour a day on facebook for about 4
months to keep it secret.... but it was worth those short hours they spent,
because they had something real and truly special. Her family finally found out
and decided that even though they disapproved, we were serious about eachother
and nothing would break us. The next 9 months or so to follow were both
beautiful and very difficult. They had many close break-up calls but would grow
and become stronger from them, strenthening their love. They had doubts and
fears almost unbearable, but worked through them. They had many lonely
nights.... but talking to eachother always made it worth the seconds. Seconds
became minutes, minutes became hours, hours became days, and so on.... but they
never gave up. They had something rare and something far more beautiful than
anyone could see.
But, some good things come to an end. There reached a point in time where she reached a very hard part in her life and became very depressed and doubtful in their relationship. He would do everything he could to console her.... he'd be loving, caring, compassionate, he'd do special LONG detailed texts about their lives together called "Eyes closed texts".... where he'd have her close her eyes after reading the text and imagine those beautiful moments. And they were always moments he was going to strive hard to give her. But she just wasn't getting better and started feeling a loses of spark, they broke up again..... he was heartbroken and did everything imaginable to win her over, but it was no use until she mentioned that if he were there, she'd feel differently, so secretly, he made a last minute decision to fly over to where she was after having been saving money for months. He told her a week before flying over there. He had to save their relationship. So the day came, his wonderful family drove him to the airport and he was taking the biggest journey of his life thus far. He was about to hold the girl of his dreams in his arms for the first time. He arrived early and while she was at work. They made plans to meet after work and her stay in his hotel because her family didn't know he was there, until the day of. They found out and he had to meet them. Her and her dad picked him up at his hotel the next day and his heart raced as the moments lead up to him meeting her, he walked out his hotel room door and walked towards the office, to see their car parked there. He started running, faster than he'd ever ran before.... she got out of the car to meet him and he held her tightly in his arms, feeling the world fade around.... feeling her heart beat against his and he whispered in her ear, "I'm finally right where I want to be" they pulled back and gazed into one another's eyes, smiling, in complete shock that they were actually together, he met her dad and apologized for all the bad things they did in their relationship. He was very nice and forgiving. They went out to a nice dinner, but the most amazing part of the night.... when they got to their house...... he talked with her dad for awhile, he played piano for her, and then they went out into the backyard.... at 10ish at night..... the cool summer breeze..... the fireflies all around..... the starry night sky above them... it was perfect. They sat in a swing and cuddled and he just couldn't resist it any longer, he lifted her chin and gave her the most passionate kiss he had ever given to anyone.... one with true emotions and love. The world vanished around and it was just the two lovers in blissful happiness in one another's embrace. It was the best moment of his life. They also slow danced to no music under the stars, it was all surreal. They had to take him back to his hotel and even though he was bummed the night was over, he'd get to see her the next day. They gave eachother a goodnight kiss and he felt at peace again. They were a couple again and his life was looking upward. The next day was just as amazing, he met her mom and step dad, and her siblings. They had a nice lunch at a restaraunt. They got back and cuddled on the couch for hours before he had to go back to the airport to fly home. The time came, it was time to leave..... the drive to the airport was bittersweet. He knew he had the best moments with her than he's ever had and he was not ready to go, but he looked forward to the next time. She walked him into the airport. As they stood in line for the ticket counter, they just held eachother tightly... not really saying anything because it was a sad moment. They looked at eachother with love and smiled because at least they knew it wouldn't be the last time..... So they thought, but I'm getting ahead of myself. SHe walked him to security before having to leave, they held eachother so close and so tight.... fighting back a waterfall of tears. He kissed her passionately but that wasn't enough, before she walked away completely, he pulled her back again for one last beautiful kiss to hold him over for awhile.... it was a romantic perfect moment before having to say their "I love you's" and "goodbyes". The plane ride home was long and very sad for him, he didn't know how long it'd be again, but he longed for her kisses, her simple touch, and her embrace..... but he never lost hope. Their relationship remained beautiful and strong, talks about her visiting, and their future together made the time worth it..... but that only lasted for about a month, when the worst finally happened...... they broke up for the 3rd and maybe last time....
....his heart shattered..... his chest collapsed..... he couldn't breathe...... he did everything in his power to try to convince her to stay and nothing was working..... she found someone else...... and he couldn't bear the thoughts of how that man will never take the time of day to making damn sure each moment is perfect. He would cry himself to sleep every night, he'd break down at random times throughout the day, he would wish on 11:11, he would wish on shooting stars, he would even pray to the God he doesn't believe in simply because he couldn't handle losing the love of his life. The love he promised his life and heart to and labeled as "The girl of my dreams" on his bucketlist. He tried to be there for her when her new interest would make her sad, he tried to remain a good friend for her, but it was unspeakably painful..... he watched as everything he ever wanted slipped away..... farther and farther.... like grains of sand through one's fingers.. He still sends her a good morning text each day, he still tells her he loves her because not a single shred of his feelings have been lost for her..... she would say there's never a chance for them again and even though his heart was gone from him, he still keeps hope with what's left of him, that they can have a second chance. He had planned on speninding his life with her, he saw her as his future wife and mother of their children. He saw a billion unexpressably beautiful moments with her and he couldn't imagine as hard as he tried, that he may never as long as he lives, gets that with her. And the thought of someone else is so far out of his realm, that it's impossible to speak of. He loves her, still to this very day.... as time ticks by every second...... seconds feel like years, he doesn't know how to be okay anymore..... his life falls apart around him....... and he cries as he types this...... the story of how he met the perfect woman, the love of his life...... and how she is no longer his...... he barely holds onto her friendship..... he clings to the last things he has from her..... the letters, the messages, the photos...... he dies every day a little more because his heart beat weakens as she gets more distant...... what can he do to save it? How can he be happy again? He needs her...... more than anything in this world. He loves her and will love her......
.......
Forever....... and always....
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