I realized this week that there is really nothing significant that has happened, NOT that it's a bad thing because things have been going absolutely amazing for Maria and I.
Getting to talk on the phone every day certainly makes me overjoyed. I've become really happy the last week or so because just getting to hear her voice makes everything a million times better. I've been super stressed with trying to get my second job all situated but she helps reduce some of the stress and makes me happy. I'm just so lucky to have her, that's really the jist of it. :)
Anyways, so Valentines is coming up. Her school does this thing where you can get this slip of paper to have a note delivered to someone of your choice, a cute message of sorts. Because I'm not there [obviously] Maria asked if I could fill one out, I said absolutely! I had planned on sending her a letter for Valentines day anyways... and so the slip is a bonus. The only thing I'll give away in the letter, without giving TOO much away (In case she sees this post.... which is very likely cause she looks at it every day almost... :P) is that in the letter, I put a portion about how she shouldn't get discouraged about seeing the happy couples together on Valentines day because they will never have the amount of passion and love her and I have. Statistically, not many high school relationships last. But with Maria, it's different.... we know what things we want out of life, we know how we connect with eachother, we know that our love and promises are genuine, and lastly... we just know we want to spend the rest of our lives together. We both mean far too much to eachother to not make it. We strive so hard to stay together and that why despite EVERYTHING we've been put through, we've pushed through and made it out stronger than before, and plus, we don't take promises lightly. So I just essentially wanted her to know in that portion of the letter that even though I'm not with her for V-day, I still love her and connect with her beyond those other couples.
I guess I ended up having more content than I thought I would. :P
So that's LDR Tuesday this week. Maria, I love you sweetheart... don't get discouraged. ok?
:)
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Monday, January 28, 2013
Monday Skateboarding: Skate and Create rant...
So this week is about Transworld Magazine's Skate and Create video series. First off, I'll explain what Skate and Create is and then go into said rant.
Skate and Create is a video series that Transworld Skateboarding magazine puts out each year. I believe it started in 2008 but I'm not 100% on that, I am however very familiar with what it is. 4 skate teams would be given 9 days to create a video inside a set warehouse (that every team would use) using only the props, obstacles, ramps, rails, and manny boxes provided... with some leniency on other miscellaneous props. (see Etnies skate and create 09' below). They'd have to use creativity and good skateboarding to have their video stand out. My personal favorite year was 2009. It saw some of the best creativity and it's really the series that got me hooked. I also was inspired by it to become a videographer for skateboarding just so I could make those videos. Things changed though in recent years for Skate and Create which is why I'm going to be ranting about it. I had went back and watched 2008's videos and they did catch my eye. Not bad for a first season. DVS especially made it awesome.
Since 2009, I saw a vast drop in creativity. Teams had less care put into the videos and it became less exciting to watch each year. The main thing though, 2012. The series changed up and went outside the warehouse. The warehouse would make it so that they HAD to be creative. But with recent trends now, everybody is focused on who has the biggest tricks at the best spots. It was quite unfortunate. The 2013 videos should be coming out shortly and we'll see how they stack up to the current status on Skate and Create.
Allow me to list my favorite videos below...
Starting with DVS's 2009 video, "Wood"...
This one is and will always be my favorite video. The reason I enjoyed it so much is because it's simple, yet amazingly put together. They used a simple white, bright background and used their obstacles in different ways. The doubles action looked outstanding, as well as the music cues, and filmography. This was the real inspiration for me to want to do this.... how simple editing and filming can make a video look so stunning.
Etnies 2009 feature, "The Legend of Boxton Square"...
Now this one also really stood out to me because of their creativity with the cardboard "world" they created. The somewhat story line they have is impressive as well as the skateboarding. Plus, it has Sean Malto.... there's a big reason why it's so good... the guy SHREDS. Anyway, getting off topic. This came in a VERY close second for me on favorite because of how well it was put together. It's actually really hard to pick between this and "Wood" but I think I find the filming more impressive in "Wood" which is why...
Circa's 2009 feature "Broken Dreams"... (last 2009 one because DC's "In the City" was just terrible")
As you can see, 2009 was an awesome year for Skate and Create. Other videos to check out are Adida's 2010 feature "Light, Shape, Color" because of their illusions with paint, their simple yet elegant feel, and editing. Another would be Fallen's 2010 video "Lose your Illusion" which is like Adida's in some ways. The only one from 2010 that really stood out to me though would be Lakai's "Lakairomania". I'll show this one because it is pretty impressive as well.
This one is up there with the 2009 features because of its creativity. Their use of fire and editing was well done. Music choice was a bit annoying but overall, an awesome video.
I couldn't seem to find anything on 2011 Skate and Create so it's possible that they skipped a year to prepare for 2012's videos.
The whole purpose of all the other explanations and videos was because if you watch those and see what 2012 compares to, it just doesn't. It was dreadful. The lack of creativity and the scheme change made it quite disappointing. My hopes are that for 2013, they move back into the warehouse and into Skate and Create's roots.
So last part of this blog is 2012's feature from the Creature "fiends" skate team, "Skate Wars" which is an urban video... quite depressing... just watch.
So I'd like to know any thoughts on how people feel about Skate and Create... whether you believe it's gotten better or worse? Favorite video? Favorite season altogether? Just comment and discuss. Peace... I'm out.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Saturday Randomness: Life Updates.
So lately, I've had quite a bit going on in my life. Not really anything bad.... just very busy.
I guess to start, since I had moved back in with my parents, I had been looking for a second job after filling out countless applications. Oddly enough though, the one application that called me was one from Carl's Jr. (Or Hardee's depending on where you live) which I had turned in right before getting hired at KFC. I got hired at KFC almost a year ago come April. I just thought it was odd that Carl's Jr. kept my application that long. O.o But anyways, I went to my interview and got hired right after the interview even though I was supposed to be given a second interview. The reason for this was because I had cook experience over at KFC and that's what they were looking for at Carl's Jr.
My main motivation for wanting to get a second job is because (as some may know, if you've kept up with the rest of my blog) my girlfriend's prom is around May 11th. I desperately want to be there, so I've been trying hard to get a second job to save in time. I worry though that I won't be able to in time because one of the stipulations living at my parent's house is that I also have to save for an apartment. I did get my W2 yesterday, so I'll be using all of my tax money towards saving for my Ohio fund. It is going to be about $347 that I'll be getting, so that pays for a little over half of it. That takes some stress down. I have 4 months to save another $2-300.... I hope I can do it. Even though this isn't expected to happen (what I'm about to say, not the prom thing)... I'd still like to ask for donations.... I mean it in utmost sincerity. Even just a dollar a person would help.... and hell, if I got 100 people to give me a dollar, that would help tremendously. And I couldn't even express the gratitude I would have for each individual. Of course, I doubt that'd happen. I just was putting it out there because being there for her prom is really important to me.
Aside from all that though, I started working front at KFC, so I'll be getting some more hours there and I should be starting at Carl's Jr. shortly.
Other than all of that busy stuff, I haven't really done much of anything else. It's ALWAYS freaking raining in Oregon so I can't go skate as often as I like. However, because Maria got her phone back about a week ago, I've been talking to her just about every day and it's amazing. I certainly missed her. That's all I'm going to say about that though cause that's what my LDR posts are for. :P Also, my friend Trevor (who inspired me to do this blog and has one of his own that I'm following.... *hint *hint.... go follow him ;)....) and I are writing a pretty awesome song. We've been working pretty long on this song and I'll be sure to post it on a Music Wednesday post when it's finished. Be sure to check it. :)
That's about all that's going on in my life right now. I'm still waiting for questions or comments.... so git on it! Just kidding.... it's just nice to have views for who actually cares about my life... :P
Have a cute puppy... (Sorry to steal some of your thunder Trevor, but just LOOK at him! :D)....
I guess to start, since I had moved back in with my parents, I had been looking for a second job after filling out countless applications. Oddly enough though, the one application that called me was one from Carl's Jr. (Or Hardee's depending on where you live) which I had turned in right before getting hired at KFC. I got hired at KFC almost a year ago come April. I just thought it was odd that Carl's Jr. kept my application that long. O.o But anyways, I went to my interview and got hired right after the interview even though I was supposed to be given a second interview. The reason for this was because I had cook experience over at KFC and that's what they were looking for at Carl's Jr.
My main motivation for wanting to get a second job is because (as some may know, if you've kept up with the rest of my blog) my girlfriend's prom is around May 11th. I desperately want to be there, so I've been trying hard to get a second job to save in time. I worry though that I won't be able to in time because one of the stipulations living at my parent's house is that I also have to save for an apartment. I did get my W2 yesterday, so I'll be using all of my tax money towards saving for my Ohio fund. It is going to be about $347 that I'll be getting, so that pays for a little over half of it. That takes some stress down. I have 4 months to save another $2-300.... I hope I can do it. Even though this isn't expected to happen (what I'm about to say, not the prom thing)... I'd still like to ask for donations.... I mean it in utmost sincerity. Even just a dollar a person would help.... and hell, if I got 100 people to give me a dollar, that would help tremendously. And I couldn't even express the gratitude I would have for each individual. Of course, I doubt that'd happen. I just was putting it out there because being there for her prom is really important to me.
Aside from all that though, I started working front at KFC, so I'll be getting some more hours there and I should be starting at Carl's Jr. shortly.
Other than all of that busy stuff, I haven't really done much of anything else. It's ALWAYS freaking raining in Oregon so I can't go skate as often as I like. However, because Maria got her phone back about a week ago, I've been talking to her just about every day and it's amazing. I certainly missed her. That's all I'm going to say about that though cause that's what my LDR posts are for. :P Also, my friend Trevor (who inspired me to do this blog and has one of his own that I'm following.... *hint *hint.... go follow him ;)....) and I are writing a pretty awesome song. We've been working pretty long on this song and I'll be sure to post it on a Music Wednesday post when it's finished. Be sure to check it. :)
That's about all that's going on in my life right now. I'm still waiting for questions or comments.... so git on it! Just kidding.... it's just nice to have views for who actually cares about my life... :P
Have a cute puppy... (Sorry to steal some of your thunder Trevor, but just LOOK at him! :D)....
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| Dat smile. :) |
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Music Wednesday: In B-flat project.
Instead of covering a band this week, I thought I'd cover a project..... it's nothing too major but it is really awesome and very well put together.
It's a webpage with 20 different YouTube videos, each with an individual playing an instrument or speaking in a B-flat key signature. When you go to the webpage, you can click on each video or any individual video and play them together and no matter what time you start videos or which ones you play, they will be in sync.
The project was designed by Darren Solomon as a collaborative music project for fun, but ended up gaining a lot of popularity.... mostly because, well.... it's impressive as hell. He thought of it because he had realized that you can play multiple YouTube videos at a time. So he decided to record his own instrument parts and sent out submission emails to further expand the project. He plays the instruments in videos 1,2,3,4, and 6 if looked at from left to right. The instruments he played are, the glass marimba, electric guitar, Kaoss Pad/synth, Rhodes electric piano, and the electric bass
The project has people from all over the world who simply play in the key of B-flat. It includes some guitar, bass, violin, trumpet, various synth instruments, and more.
When I stumbled across the project, I was blown away. The amount of passion that each individual puts into their video is peaceful. It's quite fun to play around with and there's something about it that feels inspirational.
Definitely have a go at it.... here is the link --> In B-flat.
It's a webpage with 20 different YouTube videos, each with an individual playing an instrument or speaking in a B-flat key signature. When you go to the webpage, you can click on each video or any individual video and play them together and no matter what time you start videos or which ones you play, they will be in sync.
The project was designed by Darren Solomon as a collaborative music project for fun, but ended up gaining a lot of popularity.... mostly because, well.... it's impressive as hell. He thought of it because he had realized that you can play multiple YouTube videos at a time. So he decided to record his own instrument parts and sent out submission emails to further expand the project. He plays the instruments in videos 1,2,3,4, and 6 if looked at from left to right. The instruments he played are, the glass marimba, electric guitar, Kaoss Pad/synth, Rhodes electric piano, and the electric bass
The project has people from all over the world who simply play in the key of B-flat. It includes some guitar, bass, violin, trumpet, various synth instruments, and more.
When I stumbled across the project, I was blown away. The amount of passion that each individual puts into their video is peaceful. It's quite fun to play around with and there's something about it that feels inspirational.
Definitely have a go at it.... here is the link --> In B-flat.
Monday, January 21, 2013
LDR Tuesday: Another happy update. :)
I realize that I'm writing this a day before hand, but this is always my favorite blog day because it gives a chance to talk about my lovely girlfriend. I can't help but write early because I get so excited. :D
So, about 2-3 days ago, we got the ability to talk on the phone again. Her dad is being really understanding and supportive and I can't thank him enough. Being able to hear her voice makes things a million times better. Our conversations have more meaning because we are able to hear the sincerity in our voices and our patterns of attitudes. We've talked A LOT these past couple days and it's so amazing. I've been really happy. :) I've also become more comfortable to talk to her about certain things and even though to some, this may not seem like a big deal, but now I'm comfortable enough to actually SAY "Baby", "Babe", "Sweetheart", etc. She loves nicknames... especially "angel" :) I love the way we talk and tease. It shows how real we are together.
In OTHER exciting news that could potentially be very huge, I got a second job on Saturday and am starting within the next week. Having a second job is going to allow me to save money to go be at her prom. That is my biggest goal right now because I desperately want to be there. I think about what it's going to be like to hold her in my arms, to kiss her in the spotlight of the dance floor, to sway to our song and whisper in her ear that I love her. I think about these things every day because I want them so badly. When you love somebody this much, you see a beautiful future with them. I know that when I come out of that terminal at the airport and see her, I'm going to run up to her and hold her as time and the world stops around us. I'm willing to admit that I may cry tears of joy when that happens because this relationship and having her as my girlfriend, means everything to me. I know she'll cry.... and I'll actually BE there to wipe her tears away. I just hope this happens... I need it to.
So pretty soon, we might also get the ability to start skyping again. I certainly can't wait for that. I miss her smile and her eyes. I miss the way she looks at me. When she looks at me, I can see that she loves me. There's something about the way she looks at me, that makes my heart beat fast. I just can't wait!!
So, about 2-3 days ago, we got the ability to talk on the phone again. Her dad is being really understanding and supportive and I can't thank him enough. Being able to hear her voice makes things a million times better. Our conversations have more meaning because we are able to hear the sincerity in our voices and our patterns of attitudes. We've talked A LOT these past couple days and it's so amazing. I've been really happy. :) I've also become more comfortable to talk to her about certain things and even though to some, this may not seem like a big deal, but now I'm comfortable enough to actually SAY "Baby", "Babe", "Sweetheart", etc. She loves nicknames... especially "angel" :) I love the way we talk and tease. It shows how real we are together.
In OTHER exciting news that could potentially be very huge, I got a second job on Saturday and am starting within the next week. Having a second job is going to allow me to save money to go be at her prom. That is my biggest goal right now because I desperately want to be there. I think about what it's going to be like to hold her in my arms, to kiss her in the spotlight of the dance floor, to sway to our song and whisper in her ear that I love her. I think about these things every day because I want them so badly. When you love somebody this much, you see a beautiful future with them. I know that when I come out of that terminal at the airport and see her, I'm going to run up to her and hold her as time and the world stops around us. I'm willing to admit that I may cry tears of joy when that happens because this relationship and having her as my girlfriend, means everything to me. I know she'll cry.... and I'll actually BE there to wipe her tears away. I just hope this happens... I need it to.
So pretty soon, we might also get the ability to start skyping again. I certainly can't wait for that. I miss her smile and her eyes. I miss the way she looks at me. When she looks at me, I can see that she loves me. There's something about the way she looks at me, that makes my heart beat fast. I just can't wait!!
Monday Skateboarding: Heath Ledger [surprisngly] was a skateboarder.
So this surprised me a lot. I had found a picture on "Reddit.com" of Heath Ledger skateboarding over Christian Bale. And what's cool about it, is the fact that it looks like it could be a well executed heelflip.
Here's the photo...
Some argue that the board is photo shopped in and it seems logical, however, Ledger is known to be an actual skateboarder. Here is some more proof of photos...
He also played in the movie, "Lords of Dogtown." The movie is a biographical film about the Z-boys who were an influential group of skateboarders. The film was written by the great Stacy Peralta. Heath Ledger played as Skip Engblom. He was very congratulated at how well he played the position of Engblom. The film was released in 2005.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find an individual scene of him skateboarding in "Lords of Dogtown" but I found a scene with him and other people. He's the one with the short blonde hair, black shirt over a gray shirt. I'm not 100% on this, but I heard that he actually did do his own skateboarding in that scene.
I found it to be surprising and interesting that he was a skateboarder. I just wanted to give it a share. He was also known to be a surfer, of course.... it's not surprising coming from an Australian.
R.I.P Heath. You were a great actor and awesome skater (from what I could see)
Hope you enjoyed this post...
Here's the photo...
Some argue that the board is photo shopped in and it seems logical, however, Ledger is known to be an actual skateboarder. Here is some more proof of photos...
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| Just cruising on a skateboard. |
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| Ok, grant it... this is a longboard, but it still kinda counts. |
He also played in the movie, "Lords of Dogtown." The movie is a biographical film about the Z-boys who were an influential group of skateboarders. The film was written by the great Stacy Peralta. Heath Ledger played as Skip Engblom. He was very congratulated at how well he played the position of Engblom. The film was released in 2005.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find an individual scene of him skateboarding in "Lords of Dogtown" but I found a scene with him and other people. He's the one with the short blonde hair, black shirt over a gray shirt. I'm not 100% on this, but I heard that he actually did do his own skateboarding in that scene.
I found it to be surprising and interesting that he was a skateboarder. I just wanted to give it a share. He was also known to be a surfer, of course.... it's not surprising coming from an Australian.
R.I.P Heath. You were a great actor and awesome skater (from what I could see)
Hope you enjoyed this post...
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Saturday Post: Being true to yourself (and other things)
This is going to be a more serious post this week. I like to help people who are in need of a friend or someone to talk to. I've had several instances where a friend or even an acquaintance has been depressed or having suicidal thoughts and I've been able to help them out of it. My goal for this is to convince those of you who are struggling through depression and hurt, that life can always get better and that being yourself and being optimistic will always make you feel better.
I have a lot of experience in being depressed. There were times where I felt like I couldn't do anything because of all the emotions flooding in. The best way to find something to cope with that, is to find an outlet, find that ONE thing that can make you happy or at least feel a little better. It can be a simple thing like listening to music or drawing. Mine is skateboarding. I've found that it can solve any painful point in life because it's something I'm very passionate about. If you find an outlet that you enjoy but aren't necessarily good at it (if it were something like playing guitar or drawing), it doesn't matter. It's supposed to make you feel better.... if you sit there and compare your work to others, it's not going to help at all. The whole point of having an outlet is to feel good about what you're doing and not letting anything distract you from that. The reason for the outlet is to redirect your attention from the pain you are feeling, to something more fun and productive.
A lot of times though, people may not be able to find an outlet because they can't find something that CAN actually redirect their attention. Sometimes depression can get the best of you depending on what it is you are depressed about. Common things are; trying to feel accepted, losing a girlfriend/boyfriend, people being mean to you, etc. I'll try to tackle each of these problems in the easiest way possible....
Not Feeling Accepted: This is a common problem with us teens, as we try to find ourselves and where we fit in. Unfortunately, human nature is to judge somebody first before getting to know them. The best way to get rid of the unaccepted feeling is to love yourself for who you are. Who cares what negative things others say about you? Everyone is unique to themselves and it's what separates us. If everybody was the same, think of the monotonous boring world we'd live in. One doesn't NEED to be accepted if they are proud of who they are. However, no matter what... you'll always be excepted by at least 1 person and most likely more than that because in all reality, there is 7 billion people in the world, you are bound to find somebody who accepts you. And also, it's not vital to have a lot of friends. Having even just one close friend can make all the difference. It's better to have 1 person who actually cares about you than a bunch of people who pretend to care.
Losing a gf/bf: For some people, it's like the end of the world. You were in a loving relationship with somebody, and then it's over in the blink of an eye. You may feel like you can never have as good of a relationship as the one you had. This is never the case. I used to think like that too, but there's a saying that states, "One day, there will be that one person who comes along and makes you realize why it never worked with anyone else" (Or along those lines). Again to my statement in the "not feeling accepted portion", there is around 7 billion people in the world, you are bound to find 1 person who loves you endlessly. If you've been keeping up with my LDR posts, I had that happen to me. I was distraught when my ex and I broke up and I felt like relationships would always be a burden from then on, but that was until I met Maria. She made all that pain go away and is the girl I'm going to marry someday. So with that said, it's no use being too upset about a break-up. Love comes to those who are patient. And there will always be someone for everyone.
People Treating You Harshly: No matter what, there will always be people who are going to treat you like dirt, like somebody who is below them. It's a sad fact. But if they are not physically harming you, there's no reason to be upset. If they can't be nice to you when you've done nothing wrong to them, it shows their lack of compassion. A lot of the times, there's something within themselves that they don't like or somebody treats them badly, so they try to take it out on somebody "weaker" than them. To defeat that, simply just shrug it off. Words only do so much damage. You can destroy a person's psyche by ignoring their ignorance. If you show that you don't care about the mean things they have to say, you are winning. They aren't getting their gratification from making you upset and eventually they'll see how ineffective it is and stop. It won't do any good to them being mean to you if you simply don't care. So next time somebody is verbally harassing you, look them in the eyes and say to them, "Cool... That's your opinon.... it doesn't affect me any" with a smile on your face the whole time. It'll destroy them psychologically.
Suicidal Thoughts: Life is not always easy. In fact, there's probably more hardships than good things that happen. But that's why humans are designed to live so long (aside from accidental causes of death like car wrecks and stuff). You can take the bad things in life and learn from them. Take a different path and make your life better. Back to the outlet part... outlets can really get you out of the negative groove you're in. Everybody will find one thing that they actually love to do and use that to your advantage. I believe that suicide is just a sense of giving up. You give up before things can get better when in reality, they always will, no matter what. Optimism is a key factor in allowing life to get better. With optimism, you have more of a set path you are going because subconsciously, you push for it. The more optimistic you are, the more likely you will be to obtain something.... this is because you don't give the option for failure. You'll find that chasing after the things you want in life... even if they are small things.... will get you on the fast track to happiness. Stick to a goal and put it in motion. But also, and this is going to sound a little bit harsh, suicide is kind of a sense of selfishness. Whether you believe it or not, there will always be at least one person who loves you and killing yourself only leaves them behind. It makes them sad and nobody likes to be sad. You gain nothing from suicide. Your life is over and that's it, no more laughing with people, no more doing fun things, no vacations, no more playing games with family, no chance at finding an amazing girlfriend who loves you for all that you are, not of that.... it's gone forever. You miss out on the things that can eventually get better EVEN IF it takes time.... but there is plenty of time. Find ways to occupy that wait in the meantime.
That's essentially all that I feel needs to be said. I hope I helped. Remember that life isn't always bad. You gotta give time to allow it to get better and not all people are bad either, there will always be good people in the world. You have to meet them to find them instead of judging right away. I met some amazing friends who I would've otherwise judged for the way they act if I hadn't actually got to know them.
<--- Be like this happy guy in a sea of sad people. :)
Have a good day! :)
I have a lot of experience in being depressed. There were times where I felt like I couldn't do anything because of all the emotions flooding in. The best way to find something to cope with that, is to find an outlet, find that ONE thing that can make you happy or at least feel a little better. It can be a simple thing like listening to music or drawing. Mine is skateboarding. I've found that it can solve any painful point in life because it's something I'm very passionate about. If you find an outlet that you enjoy but aren't necessarily good at it (if it were something like playing guitar or drawing), it doesn't matter. It's supposed to make you feel better.... if you sit there and compare your work to others, it's not going to help at all. The whole point of having an outlet is to feel good about what you're doing and not letting anything distract you from that. The reason for the outlet is to redirect your attention from the pain you are feeling, to something more fun and productive.
A lot of times though, people may not be able to find an outlet because they can't find something that CAN actually redirect their attention. Sometimes depression can get the best of you depending on what it is you are depressed about. Common things are; trying to feel accepted, losing a girlfriend/boyfriend, people being mean to you, etc. I'll try to tackle each of these problems in the easiest way possible....
Not Feeling Accepted: This is a common problem with us teens, as we try to find ourselves and where we fit in. Unfortunately, human nature is to judge somebody first before getting to know them. The best way to get rid of the unaccepted feeling is to love yourself for who you are. Who cares what negative things others say about you? Everyone is unique to themselves and it's what separates us. If everybody was the same, think of the monotonous boring world we'd live in. One doesn't NEED to be accepted if they are proud of who they are. However, no matter what... you'll always be excepted by at least 1 person and most likely more than that because in all reality, there is 7 billion people in the world, you are bound to find somebody who accepts you. And also, it's not vital to have a lot of friends. Having even just one close friend can make all the difference. It's better to have 1 person who actually cares about you than a bunch of people who pretend to care.
Losing a gf/bf: For some people, it's like the end of the world. You were in a loving relationship with somebody, and then it's over in the blink of an eye. You may feel like you can never have as good of a relationship as the one you had. This is never the case. I used to think like that too, but there's a saying that states, "One day, there will be that one person who comes along and makes you realize why it never worked with anyone else" (Or along those lines). Again to my statement in the "not feeling accepted portion", there is around 7 billion people in the world, you are bound to find 1 person who loves you endlessly. If you've been keeping up with my LDR posts, I had that happen to me. I was distraught when my ex and I broke up and I felt like relationships would always be a burden from then on, but that was until I met Maria. She made all that pain go away and is the girl I'm going to marry someday. So with that said, it's no use being too upset about a break-up. Love comes to those who are patient. And there will always be someone for everyone.
People Treating You Harshly: No matter what, there will always be people who are going to treat you like dirt, like somebody who is below them. It's a sad fact. But if they are not physically harming you, there's no reason to be upset. If they can't be nice to you when you've done nothing wrong to them, it shows their lack of compassion. A lot of the times, there's something within themselves that they don't like or somebody treats them badly, so they try to take it out on somebody "weaker" than them. To defeat that, simply just shrug it off. Words only do so much damage. You can destroy a person's psyche by ignoring their ignorance. If you show that you don't care about the mean things they have to say, you are winning. They aren't getting their gratification from making you upset and eventually they'll see how ineffective it is and stop. It won't do any good to them being mean to you if you simply don't care. So next time somebody is verbally harassing you, look them in the eyes and say to them, "Cool... That's your opinon.... it doesn't affect me any" with a smile on your face the whole time. It'll destroy them psychologically.
Suicidal Thoughts: Life is not always easy. In fact, there's probably more hardships than good things that happen. But that's why humans are designed to live so long (aside from accidental causes of death like car wrecks and stuff). You can take the bad things in life and learn from them. Take a different path and make your life better. Back to the outlet part... outlets can really get you out of the negative groove you're in. Everybody will find one thing that they actually love to do and use that to your advantage. I believe that suicide is just a sense of giving up. You give up before things can get better when in reality, they always will, no matter what. Optimism is a key factor in allowing life to get better. With optimism, you have more of a set path you are going because subconsciously, you push for it. The more optimistic you are, the more likely you will be to obtain something.... this is because you don't give the option for failure. You'll find that chasing after the things you want in life... even if they are small things.... will get you on the fast track to happiness. Stick to a goal and put it in motion. But also, and this is going to sound a little bit harsh, suicide is kind of a sense of selfishness. Whether you believe it or not, there will always be at least one person who loves you and killing yourself only leaves them behind. It makes them sad and nobody likes to be sad. You gain nothing from suicide. Your life is over and that's it, no more laughing with people, no more doing fun things, no vacations, no more playing games with family, no chance at finding an amazing girlfriend who loves you for all that you are, not of that.... it's gone forever. You miss out on the things that can eventually get better EVEN IF it takes time.... but there is plenty of time. Find ways to occupy that wait in the meantime.
That's essentially all that I feel needs to be said. I hope I helped. Remember that life isn't always bad. You gotta give time to allow it to get better and not all people are bad either, there will always be good people in the world. You have to meet them to find them instead of judging right away. I met some amazing friends who I would've otherwise judged for the way they act if I hadn't actually got to know them.
<--- Be like this happy guy in a sea of sad people. :)Have a good day! :)
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Music Wednesday: the band "Bruised But Not Broken"
Holy crap.... I'm actually remembering to do my music wednesday post this week. I've only done one and it bums me out. Music is definitely a big part of me. So I'm going to cover the band Bruised But Not Broken. They are quite an underground band that I only discovered a few months ago. They are a metal-core/Ambient band out of Charlotte, NC. They formed in 2009. I was just clicking through the music portion of YouTube and they were somewhere within the many pages of music. I heard their song Just (Defied) Sin and really enjoyed it. It has a great mixture of high, low, and mid screams and even some dubstep. I have never liked low screams but for some reason, this band is an exception. I am making this post because they definitely deserve to be out there. They are very talented.
The members are:
| Hudson Hower : Vocals |
| Matt Bentley : Drums |
| Stevie D : Guitar |
| Alex Downs : Guitar |
| Seth Brown : Bass |
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| Intense video cap from their song "Born and Razed" |
Right now, they only have an EP titled "Just (Defied)". It has five songs which are as follows;
1. Born and Razed
2. The Master and His Daughter
3. Miss Fortune
4. Just (Defied) Sin
5. A Starving Clock Comes Back For Seconds
The song to the right, is "Just (Defied) Sin" which is the song I discovered them by. I really enjoy their music and I hope you do too.
I find this song to be very intense. I merely just discovered it today as I write this post. It's called "The Master and His Daughter"
I hope you take a listen to this band, if you are into this style of music, you'll definitely enjoy it. They are very talented. Here is their facebook page.... definitely give it a like.
LDR Tuesday: Just a small, happier update from last week. :)
So I was pretty busy today and that's why I'm writing this post at like 3 a.m.
Basically, since her phone is taken away again. We still proceed to talk through email until we can get our phone privileges back. Come to find out.... that'll be on the 13th of February which so happens to be out 8 months. :) Her dad is being a lot more understanding about everything. I can't thank him enough. He even knows we're emailing because he knows we'd do anything to talk to eachother. It's his way of making sure we are honest.... and we are. We just like to talk everyday because it's so easy for us to miss eachother. I just know that I can't wait to hear her voice again. I haven't heard it in a long time and I really miss hearing her say she loves me. I think after then, things will be back to normal for us again, like back when our relationship was just beginning. Now that her mom and step-dad are back in Georgia, a lot less drama will be displaced. Not that I don't respect them, because I really do.... I just feel that they aren't letting her make some of her decisions. I could see if I was a bad guy for her, but I'm really not. I treat her with utmost respect and love, I am ANTI drug and alcohol, I have a steady job, a car, and am goal oriented. Isn't that the kind of stuff parents want in their daughter's boyfriend?
Anyways, I got on a bit of a rant there. Sorry... :P
With V-day coming up, I may do something for Maria if the funds permit. If so, I'll do a post about it. I'll continue with the updates. I love being able to share our amazing story to the world. I hope you stick with it. Questions? Comments? (If anybody actually reads this...)
Basically, since her phone is taken away again. We still proceed to talk through email until we can get our phone privileges back. Come to find out.... that'll be on the 13th of February which so happens to be out 8 months. :) Her dad is being a lot more understanding about everything. I can't thank him enough. He even knows we're emailing because he knows we'd do anything to talk to eachother. It's his way of making sure we are honest.... and we are. We just like to talk everyday because it's so easy for us to miss eachother. I just know that I can't wait to hear her voice again. I haven't heard it in a long time and I really miss hearing her say she loves me. I think after then, things will be back to normal for us again, like back when our relationship was just beginning. Now that her mom and step-dad are back in Georgia, a lot less drama will be displaced. Not that I don't respect them, because I really do.... I just feel that they aren't letting her make some of her decisions. I could see if I was a bad guy for her, but I'm really not. I treat her with utmost respect and love, I am ANTI drug and alcohol, I have a steady job, a car, and am goal oriented. Isn't that the kind of stuff parents want in their daughter's boyfriend?
Anyways, I got on a bit of a rant there. Sorry... :P
With V-day coming up, I may do something for Maria if the funds permit. If so, I'll do a post about it. I'll continue with the updates. I love being able to share our amazing story to the world. I hope you stick with it. Questions? Comments? (If anybody actually reads this...)
Monday, January 14, 2013
Skateboarding Monday: Trainsong Skatepark Review
I realize that I haven't done the best lately at keeping up with my blog. I want to do this week's post on my favorite place to go skating. It's not necessarily my favorite skatepark but it is my favorite tranquil spot. It's where I go to get away from my problems in life. It's very peaceful at night especially, which is really the only time I go. It has one light over the park which is enough to skate the whole park. (Which really isn't very big).
The skatepark was built in 2003. The ground was surfaced by Public Works Maintenance asphalt crew and the skatepark equipment was provided by a Community Development Block Grant (CDBG). The park was primarily constructed for neighborhood use, but is fun for really anybody that hits it. The equipment is all metal so it's not the best idea to skate there on cold nights provided that the ramps are slick
The best thing about this park is that it is kind of secluded. It's hidden behind Highway 99 near a train yard. It's kind of cool at night to hear what goes on at the train yard. There's something about it that makes it peaceful. Another perk to this park, is that the few locals that skate there are actually pretty nice. Nobody makes fun of you for being bad and everybody there has a positive friendly attitude. The mini-ramp may be small, but I've actually seen some pretty good tricks being thrown down on it. I once saw somebody transfer from the quarter to the mini shown on the image to the right.
The line I've been working on lately is to drop in on the far left quarter in the image above, fs boardslide the kinked rail, do a kick turn on the ramp to the far right, then hit the smaller rail with a 50-50 or Smith Grind. I've been unsuccesful landing either a 50-50 or Smith yet, but I'm getting close. I'm definitely going to try to get a video of it when I do get it down.
I do recommend the park to anybody interested in skating it. It's not very big or technical, but it is just a fun park to mess around on and enjoy a quiet peaceful skate session.
The best way I can describe on how to get there from West 11th is to take Randy Papé Beltline and then turn right on Roosevelt Blvd. You follow Roosevelt until you get to Bethel Rd. You turn right on Bethel and a few blocks down from the turn, you'll get to Edison St. which is slightly hidden behind some shrubbery in someone's yard. Follow to the end and you can't miss the park seeing as how it's on a dead end.
The best way from River Road/ Chambers is to either turn left or right on Roosevelt and follow towards Bethel. You'll come up to a crosswalk that shows a "Red Cross" sign and follow the road in the same way as I explained above.
Definitely get a chance to check out the park. You'll have fun. Thanks for checking this out.
The skatepark was built in 2003. The ground was surfaced by Public Works Maintenance asphalt crew and the skatepark equipment was provided by a Community Development Block Grant (CDBG). The park was primarily constructed for neighborhood use, but is fun for really anybody that hits it. The equipment is all metal so it's not the best idea to skate there on cold nights provided that the ramps are slick
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| Pyramid with a wide 2'-ish rail. The rail is about 4 inches wide. I've only seen one person hit it. |
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| Full view. The rail closest to the camera isn't all wobbly like the picture shows, but it is a kinked rail. Really fun to hit. The mini-ramp to the left is good for beginners. I've learned some good stuff on it that helped me for bigger vert things. |
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| The entrance walkway to the park goes between these two ramps. |
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| The park from street view. There is a playground shown to the right. There is also a big walking path that goes to the side and around the field behind the park. There is also a big baseball diamond on the field behind the park. |
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| Trainsong from above view. Located at the end of Edison Street in Eugene. |
I do recommend the park to anybody interested in skating it. It's not very big or technical, but it is just a fun park to mess around on and enjoy a quiet peaceful skate session.
The best way I can describe on how to get there from West 11th is to take Randy Papé Beltline and then turn right on Roosevelt Blvd. You follow Roosevelt until you get to Bethel Rd. You turn right on Bethel and a few blocks down from the turn, you'll get to Edison St. which is slightly hidden behind some shrubbery in someone's yard. Follow to the end and you can't miss the park seeing as how it's on a dead end.
The best way from River Road/ Chambers is to either turn left or right on Roosevelt and follow towards Bethel. You'll come up to a crosswalk that shows a "Red Cross" sign and follow the road in the same way as I explained above.
Definitely get a chance to check out the park. You'll have fun. Thanks for checking this out.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
LDR Tuesday: *Sigh* Update.. (Tis a bit short this week)
Well, not like it should come as a surprise because of how many times this has happened, but Maria and I got caught talking in secret again. We were texting on my break while I was at work and her step dad snuck in her room and caught her on her friend's Ipod. It couldn't have come at a worse time either because we were 2 days away from getting our phone and computer privileges back. But her mom and step dad are going back to their house in Georgia today (the 8th) and the drama will die down a bit. Maria's dad seems to be a bit more understanding. Him and Maria had a long discussion last night about being more understanding with eachother and she was fighting for our relationship. He said he'd try to be more understanding which is great! :) I told Maria that if he ever felt like he needed to know something about me, I'd be happy to answer whatever it is he wants to know. I want to be upfront and honest with him because I love his daughter more than anything else in the world and I really do try to be the best I possibly can for her, I always will be. I know when her family finally gets to meet me and see who I really am, they'll come to a better understanding because I really am always going to be devoted to Maria. I want to spend a lifetime making her happy and being there for her, through thick and thin. I want to be there as her husband and her best friend, giving her as much love as a human can give another. No matter what happens in life, she'll always be the girl of my dreams. I love her!
Monday, January 7, 2013
Skateboarding Monday: How I got into skateboarding.
As you may have realized, skateboarding is a big part of my life. It's
basically the thing I'm most passionate about (aside from my girlfriend.
:P) and this post this week is going to be about how I got into it and
how it impacts my day to day life.
As most kids, I started out with a cheap walmart type board. I had a pokémon board I received from my cousin. I didn't really start skating until I had played a lot of Tony Hawk's Pro Skater games. I saw the things you could do in and it was something I wanted to do. I spray painted the pokémon board black and attempted to make the Zero Skateboards logo on the bottom. I learned how to ollie a little bit because of my neighbor around the corner. He was a heavy skateboarder and at the time, he wasn't into drugs or anything and had no problem helping me out. I was about 11 or 12 when this was going on. It wasn't until the end of my 8th grade year when I really got serious about skateboarding. My friend Ben who I had known since 6th grade was a skateboarder. We started really getting into the culture in 8th grade. He always would let me use his Kryptonics board when I'd go over to his house. I started learning shuvs and got my ollies down and on my birthday at the end of 8th grade year, he gave me the board. I remember that setup still to this day because of how dreadfully cheap it was. :P
It was a Kryptonics 7.75 with Tracker Trucks (still have never heard of them since then), Abecs Bearings, and I think Spitfire wheels (which I still have). I had my first real test of skateboarding that weekend after my birthday. We went to the skatepark right down the road from me and he taught me how to get a feel for vert skating and just the basics of flatground. My friend Colton, whom I also met in 6th grade, was just starting up skating around then too. He improved much faster than I did and is really the main reason I got so into skateboarding. He taught me a lot of what I know now. We have been skateboarding "buds" ever since.
The thing that differs Colton and I is the fact that he's more of a vert skater, and I'm more of a street skater. I got into street because I was watching a lot of Rodney Mullen stuff and other street skaters and wanted to be like that. I started out with a 3 stair for my first taste of street. I've been doing ledges and stair sets ever since. I haven't gone any higher than a five stair yet but I have hit different sizes of 3's, 4's, and 5's. My best trick on flatground is probably a heelflip or varial. I only land those every so often though. Colton still to this day, kicks my ass at a round of S.K.A.T.E. every time. I don't work on my flat ground enough because I work on the more unique stuff. Which reminds me that Colton and I started a video series called "Unique Skateboarding" the first one got delted but here's the second....
So I've been skating for approximately 5 years and have realized that I love this sport a lot. I'm definitely going to be doing it for the rest of my life. I even plan on working somewhere in skateboarding. I've gone through 5 different boards and am now on my sixth. Here's my current setup...
So yeah, that's basically what skateboarding means to me. "I know that I'll never stop skateboarding unless I become paralyzed or I die. I live to skate and I skate to live" By Me.
BONUS VID. ;)
As most kids, I started out with a cheap walmart type board. I had a pokémon board I received from my cousin. I didn't really start skating until I had played a lot of Tony Hawk's Pro Skater games. I saw the things you could do in and it was something I wanted to do. I spray painted the pokémon board black and attempted to make the Zero Skateboards logo on the bottom. I learned how to ollie a little bit because of my neighbor around the corner. He was a heavy skateboarder and at the time, he wasn't into drugs or anything and had no problem helping me out. I was about 11 or 12 when this was going on. It wasn't until the end of my 8th grade year when I really got serious about skateboarding. My friend Ben who I had known since 6th grade was a skateboarder. We started really getting into the culture in 8th grade. He always would let me use his Kryptonics board when I'd go over to his house. I started learning shuvs and got my ollies down and on my birthday at the end of 8th grade year, he gave me the board. I remember that setup still to this day because of how dreadfully cheap it was. :P
It was a Kryptonics 7.75 with Tracker Trucks (still have never heard of them since then), Abecs Bearings, and I think Spitfire wheels (which I still have). I had my first real test of skateboarding that weekend after my birthday. We went to the skatepark right down the road from me and he taught me how to get a feel for vert skating and just the basics of flatground. My friend Colton, whom I also met in 6th grade, was just starting up skating around then too. He improved much faster than I did and is really the main reason I got so into skateboarding. He taught me a lot of what I know now. We have been skateboarding "buds" ever since.
The thing that differs Colton and I is the fact that he's more of a vert skater, and I'm more of a street skater. I got into street because I was watching a lot of Rodney Mullen stuff and other street skaters and wanted to be like that. I started out with a 3 stair for my first taste of street. I've been doing ledges and stair sets ever since. I haven't gone any higher than a five stair yet but I have hit different sizes of 3's, 4's, and 5's. My best trick on flatground is probably a heelflip or varial. I only land those every so often though. Colton still to this day, kicks my ass at a round of S.K.A.T.E. every time. I don't work on my flat ground enough because I work on the more unique stuff. Which reminds me that Colton and I started a video series called "Unique Skateboarding" the first one got delted but here's the second....
So I've been skating for approximately 5 years and have realized that I love this sport a lot. I'm definitely going to be doing it for the rest of my life. I even plan on working somewhere in skateboarding. I've gone through 5 different boards and am now on my sixth. Here's my current setup...
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| ATM 7.75 |
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| Bones Reds Bearings, the only bearings I will ever skate. They are AMAZING. |
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| Bones 53mm Wheels. Best wheels I've had. |
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| Independent Trucks. They are a bit heavy, but they last quite a long time. I prefer Ventures. |
BONUS VID. ;)
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Saturday Post: Today's a big day. 1/5/13
So about 3 weeks ago my Saturday post was about me moving out onto my own and how excited I was. Well, for the past few weeks living here, I learned a lot.
I had moved in about mid December and I paid them $100 for it because it was half a month (They were going to charge me $200 a month and I wasn't paying the landlord directly) But then they started asking me if I could pay $200 by the first of January which I couldn't do because I didn't have the funds until the 10th which is my payday. Thing about that is, they also wanted the $200 for the first of February too. My monthly income is around like $470, So I could do that except they started going off about how I needed to help pay my portion of the internet which is another $20, plus I hadn't accounted for the fact that I owed my parents $60 for my car insurance. (We both pay half for it) and THEN, I had an unexpected phone card expense which is ANOTHER $20 because it's the lifeline to whether I get contacted for a job or not, so inevitably, it is an important expense too. And then, I would have to worry about my food expenses. All of that puts me well over what I make and they didn't see that.
On top of all that though, they also are very heavy drinkers. On the first night that Colton moved in, they invited 2 friends over and all 4 of them got blackout drunk. It caused someone to take of Sierra's doorknob without any recollection of it. Plus they would always take the bathroom door off to play beer pong. This would go on until about 4-7 am. They seemed to neglect the fact that we were in an apartment, so at any time, we could have received a noise complaint which would also cause them to get caught for underage drinking. It wouldn't have been so bad for me except for the fact that my room was the living room. I had no bedroom door and no privacy. I had to stay up late because they had the disrespect to not let me sleep. Being the alcohol free guy I am, it's annoying to be around alcohol as a whole.... seeing what it would do to them makes me wonder why anybody finds that appealing, why being a complete moron, feeling sick, forgetting things because of blacking out, makes that image of drinking something you want to do.
Well because of all that has gone on in a mere 3 weeks and how difficult it's been to cope with it, I asked my parents if I could move back in with them. They are coming to help me pack up and move today and I am so happy. The reason I moved in the first place was because I had been quite a jerk to my family. I never helped out, I was lazy at finding a second job, I got in constant arguments with them, and I annoyed my sister all the time. This experience really put things in perspective for me. I took my family for granted and I showed a lack of appreciation towards them. I've become super motivated to find a second job and I've been working hard. I've already filled out and turned in around 10 applications and 3 resumes. I still have more to fill out. I also am going to be a much better son to my parents because they are taking the time to let me move back in with them. It's kind of sad I had to learn these things the hard way but in a way, I'm glad it happened. I've become a better person from this experience.
In the meantime, my friend Trevor is working on finding a job and him and I are going to try to room together. I know I can count on him to be a good roommate because he doesn't drink, is reliable, and has been a good friend since sophomore year.
Questions and comments are always appreciated.
I had moved in about mid December and I paid them $100 for it because it was half a month (They were going to charge me $200 a month and I wasn't paying the landlord directly) But then they started asking me if I could pay $200 by the first of January which I couldn't do because I didn't have the funds until the 10th which is my payday. Thing about that is, they also wanted the $200 for the first of February too. My monthly income is around like $470, So I could do that except they started going off about how I needed to help pay my portion of the internet which is another $20, plus I hadn't accounted for the fact that I owed my parents $60 for my car insurance. (We both pay half for it) and THEN, I had an unexpected phone card expense which is ANOTHER $20 because it's the lifeline to whether I get contacted for a job or not, so inevitably, it is an important expense too. And then, I would have to worry about my food expenses. All of that puts me well over what I make and they didn't see that.
On top of all that though, they also are very heavy drinkers. On the first night that Colton moved in, they invited 2 friends over and all 4 of them got blackout drunk. It caused someone to take of Sierra's doorknob without any recollection of it. Plus they would always take the bathroom door off to play beer pong. This would go on until about 4-7 am. They seemed to neglect the fact that we were in an apartment, so at any time, we could have received a noise complaint which would also cause them to get caught for underage drinking. It wouldn't have been so bad for me except for the fact that my room was the living room. I had no bedroom door and no privacy. I had to stay up late because they had the disrespect to not let me sleep. Being the alcohol free guy I am, it's annoying to be around alcohol as a whole.... seeing what it would do to them makes me wonder why anybody finds that appealing, why being a complete moron, feeling sick, forgetting things because of blacking out, makes that image of drinking something you want to do.
Well because of all that has gone on in a mere 3 weeks and how difficult it's been to cope with it, I asked my parents if I could move back in with them. They are coming to help me pack up and move today and I am so happy. The reason I moved in the first place was because I had been quite a jerk to my family. I never helped out, I was lazy at finding a second job, I got in constant arguments with them, and I annoyed my sister all the time. This experience really put things in perspective for me. I took my family for granted and I showed a lack of appreciation towards them. I've become super motivated to find a second job and I've been working hard. I've already filled out and turned in around 10 applications and 3 resumes. I still have more to fill out. I also am going to be a much better son to my parents because they are taking the time to let me move back in with them. It's kind of sad I had to learn these things the hard way but in a way, I'm glad it happened. I've become a better person from this experience.
In the meantime, my friend Trevor is working on finding a job and him and I are going to try to room together. I know I can count on him to be a good roommate because he doesn't drink, is reliable, and has been a good friend since sophomore year.
Questions and comments are always appreciated.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
LDR Tuesday: (Sorry it's late) Why our relationship is so strong.
So because Maria is essentially half of the subject of these posts, I asked her to pick a topic about what to write about. She wanted the topic at hand to be about the strength of our relationship and what steps we've gone through to get this strong. Here goes...
The strength of our relationship basically developed from when we had broke up. We did break up at one point because her parents forced us. It was the hardest thing we'd both endured thus far so after about a week, we got back together secretely because the pain was too much for either of us to handle. We've been together since. So there was a long period of time we were talking through email during her study hall period at school. Then a little while later, we started talking on facebook. Her dad had found out. He was upset but didn't actually tell us to quit talking.... but we felt it was best to just keep it secret more so we talked only through email or texting. Somehow again we got caught. We decided to only text keeping it secret further. AGAIN, we got caught but at that point her dad realized how devoted we were to stay together so he made the decision to let us talk an hour on the phone each night to keep from deceit. We got a bit greedy one night and were texting. Her mom found the messages the next day and she got grounded for a bit. We then got our privileges back. We got to talk for quite awhile and things were going really great for us. She started to have doubts about why she means so much to me, why I love her beyond what any guy has. I was doing everything I could to prove to her why she's who I intend on making my wife someday, why she's so damn important to me, and why I love her beyond what words can even express. That doubt lead her to making a mistake (That I won't mention because it's to stay between her and I). It has caused her a lot of pain in herself even though I forgive her completely. I know it caused us to become stronger. It caused us to be unable to talk for a month so far. After about 2 weeks, we couldn't take not talking and we've been emailing at all the chances we get and she gets her phone and laptop back around the 8th. (We've been emailing via her friend's Ipod) So I'm super excited to hear her voice again and get to video chat..... I miss her beautiful eyes and smile. :)
So throughout this time we've been emailing, a lot of serious conversations have developed. We've become more honest with eachother, we've told eachother things we want in the future, and we've been there for eachother when times were rough.
There's really nothing her and I can't work out. We have a rare relationship where we work through our problems instead of giving up. Giving up doesn't show devotion, it shows a lack of care and that the love there wasn't really real. We are SO devoted to eachother and that's why we work out everything. We want more than anything to make it and so far it hasn't failed us, and nor will it. We have a connection and love for eachother that is far beyond the "norm." I love her so much and she loves me, and it's nice to say that she does and be 100% confident of that. :)
AGAIN, if you have any questions? Comments? Advice? Or need of advice? Don't hesitate to comment. I'd be happy to discuss whatever it is you are talking/questioning about.
P.S. I love you Maria! Hope you liked the post about your topic. :)
The strength of our relationship basically developed from when we had broke up. We did break up at one point because her parents forced us. It was the hardest thing we'd both endured thus far so after about a week, we got back together secretely because the pain was too much for either of us to handle. We've been together since. So there was a long period of time we were talking through email during her study hall period at school. Then a little while later, we started talking on facebook. Her dad had found out. He was upset but didn't actually tell us to quit talking.... but we felt it was best to just keep it secret more so we talked only through email or texting. Somehow again we got caught. We decided to only text keeping it secret further. AGAIN, we got caught but at that point her dad realized how devoted we were to stay together so he made the decision to let us talk an hour on the phone each night to keep from deceit. We got a bit greedy one night and were texting. Her mom found the messages the next day and she got grounded for a bit. We then got our privileges back. We got to talk for quite awhile and things were going really great for us. She started to have doubts about why she means so much to me, why I love her beyond what any guy has. I was doing everything I could to prove to her why she's who I intend on making my wife someday, why she's so damn important to me, and why I love her beyond what words can even express. That doubt lead her to making a mistake (That I won't mention because it's to stay between her and I). It has caused her a lot of pain in herself even though I forgive her completely. I know it caused us to become stronger. It caused us to be unable to talk for a month so far. After about 2 weeks, we couldn't take not talking and we've been emailing at all the chances we get and she gets her phone and laptop back around the 8th. (We've been emailing via her friend's Ipod) So I'm super excited to hear her voice again and get to video chat..... I miss her beautiful eyes and smile. :)
So throughout this time we've been emailing, a lot of serious conversations have developed. We've become more honest with eachother, we've told eachother things we want in the future, and we've been there for eachother when times were rough.
There's really nothing her and I can't work out. We have a rare relationship where we work through our problems instead of giving up. Giving up doesn't show devotion, it shows a lack of care and that the love there wasn't really real. We are SO devoted to eachother and that's why we work out everything. We want more than anything to make it and so far it hasn't failed us, and nor will it. We have a connection and love for eachother that is far beyond the "norm." I love her so much and she loves me, and it's nice to say that she does and be 100% confident of that. :)
AGAIN, if you have any questions? Comments? Advice? Or need of advice? Don't hesitate to comment. I'd be happy to discuss whatever it is you are talking/questioning about.
P.S. I love you Maria! Hope you liked the post about your topic. :)
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